Deciding Upon a Career…HELP

As a typical INFJ, I have many interests and have difficulty to pursuing a single thing. This can be problematic when deciding upon a career path which is probably why I am at crossroads at the moment doing a bit of everything. My main interests include psychotherapy, illustration and web development.

Each of these career paths will be rewarding in their own way but each also have their own drawbacks and challenges. For example if I pick illustration, I risk financial uncertainty in order to have a career I really enjoy. If I pick web development I will be financially secure but I will find a lack of meaning in my work. Psychotherapy provides me with a sense of meaning and I also really enjoy it but the road to being able to practice is a long one.

As of now I work as a part-time support assistant to an individual with autism. I write a psychology blog. I am doing some freelance MEAN stack development. I paint in my freetime. This way I have been able to incorportate all my interests but eventually I will have to pick a path so that I can truly develop in an area. I don’t really want to be in the ‘jack of all trades master of none’ place. I will always find time for the things I enjoy in my free time but I just want to decide on which of these means enough to work 9am-5pm on.

I’d appreciate any insight anyone else has! Thanks for reading!

Paralysed by Anxiety

I’m currently lying in bed with my heart pounding. I feel like I am suffocating. I don’t really know what the best thing to do is when I experience paralysing anxiety. Do I let myself experience it? Do I try to distract myself?

I have worries in the back of my mind that I don’t really want to acknowledge because I know my anxiety will increase if I think about it. So I’m sort of just concentrating on my breathing. I know this will pass.

Just Write.

I have been putting off writing on this blog due to thoughts about what a blog should look like. I think about how I have to write in a certain way. I think about what a blog layout should be like. I think about having to create an audience for my blog. Blogging has become so overwhelming for me that I haven’t been writing at all!

So this year, I have decided to just start writing. I’m not going to worry about the formalities and professionalism of all this. I am just going to go ahead and share my thoughts and feelings on various matters. I invite you to do the same. I think ‘writer’s block’ is just the way our brain processes the fear of writing. Writing should be enjoyable. Not a chore. So please, just write.

Anyway, I hope I find some people that will care enough to read what I have to say. I hope I find people that I enjoy reading.

Until next time,