Finished.

Endings are some of the most difficult times we come across. The end of a relationship, a job, or even the life of someone close to you can really affect you in unimaginable ways.

It’s important to come to terms with endings. Everything finishes at some point and that is ok. We wouldn’t know how good things are if we didn’t experience losses sometimes. Plus, with every ending comes a new beginning.

Where endings bring despair, beginnings bring hope and hope is the most important thing we have. Hope propels us forward, it provides possibilities and encourages dreams. I don’t think humans would be much of anything if we didn’t have hope.

I hope that the next time you experience despair, you will embrace hope. Dream impossible things.

Van Gogh is My Hero

I just finished ‘Van Gogh’s Ear, The True Story’ by Bernadette Murphy and it has furthered my love for Vincent Van Gogh.

I have a great compassion for Van Gogh and his mental suffering. I consider him a hero for his fight with his mind in a time that was not kind to those with mental illness. Although he lost his battle, he has to be applauded for the fight he put up. He was able to produce a great amount of paintings despite his suffering.

Not only this, I admire his grit with painting. Despite only selling one painting in his lifetime, he kept on painting. He rebelled against his father in order to do what he wanted with his life.

“I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.” – Van Gogh

Deciding Upon a Career…HELP

As a typical INFJ, I have many interests and have difficulty to pursuing a single thing. This can be problematic when deciding upon a career path which is probably why I am at crossroads at the moment doing a bit of everything. My main interests include psychotherapy, illustration and web development.

Each of these career paths will be rewarding in their own way but each also have their own drawbacks and challenges. For example if I pick illustration, I risk financial uncertainty in order to have a career I really enjoy. If I pick web development I will be financially secure but I will find a lack of meaning in my work. Psychotherapy provides me with a sense of meaning and I also really enjoy it but the road to being able to practice is a long one.

As of now I work as a part-time support assistant to an individual with autism. I write a psychology blog. I am doing some freelance MEAN stack development. I paint in my freetime. This way I have been able to incorportate all my interests but eventually I will have to pick a path so that I can truly develop in an area. I don’t really want to be in the ‘jack of all trades master of none’ place. I will always find time for the things I enjoy in my free time but I just want to decide on which of these means enough to work 9am-5pm on.

I’d appreciate any insight anyone else has! Thanks for reading!

Paralysed by Anxiety

I’m currently lying in bed with my heart pounding. I feel like I am suffocating. I don’t really know what the best thing to do is when I experience paralysing anxiety. Do I let myself experience it? Do I try to distract myself?

I have worries in the back of my mind that I don’t really want to acknowledge because I know my anxiety will increase if I think about it. So I’m sort of just concentrating on my breathing. I know this will pass.

Just Write.

I have been putting off writing on this blog due to thoughts about what a blog should look like. I think about how I have to write in a certain way. I think about what a blog layout should be like. I think about having to create an audience for my blog. Blogging has become so overwhelming for me that I haven’t been writing at all!

So this year, I have decided to just start writing. I’m not going to worry about the formalities and professionalism of all this. I am just going to go ahead and share my thoughts and feelings on various matters. I invite you to do the same. I think ‘writer’s block’ is just the way our brain processes the fear of writing. Writing should be enjoyable. Not a chore. So please, just write.

Anyway, I hope I find some people that will care enough to read what I have to say. I hope I find people that I enjoy reading.

Until next time,

Raysa

Hoorah! Jodie Whittaker Kills It As The New Doctor

8.5/10

It was about time we were blessed with a female doctor, and luckily Jodie Whittaker is absolutely killing it. Her performance as the 13th Doctor reflects the last few doctors before her.

I was truly worried beforehand because if Jodie did not succeed it would give showrunners the get-go to not casts female leads. However, Jodie has proved that she can take this show and give a performance that supersedes some of her male predecessors.

I was also pleasantly surprised to see POC companions! This is the most progressive the show has been in a while, and it makes me proud to be a doctor who fan.

Let me know what you thought of Jodie’s performance. How do you feel about a female doctor?

Final Space Review

8/10

Final space is a beautifully animated space-comedy series created by Olan Rodgers. The show follows the adventures of Gary – a prisoner aboard the Galaxy One. He meets an adorable green alien named Mooncake who is a planet-destroying weapon. Together they try to figure out the mysterious ‘final space’.

The show takes a few episodes to get in to – but if you stick around you will not be disappointed. This show is intelligent, moving and will have you thinking about friendship and life. The characters show interesting, realistic development. There will be moments where you cry as well as laugh. There is definitely some room for improvement but overall this is a charming little series.